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[Jan. 20., 2008|09:03 am] |
Met with that damned Xelios. Is not budging on anything, wishes to 'buy out' Juniandi's contract. Drosh maybe should have not used that ruse; if Xellios finds out there is no contract, then not certain how would react.
Sir was also most unkindly about his implications about what kind of business the Kodo is in. If Drosh not more worried about mees Juniandi, sir would no longer have jaw or tongue to say such things anymorely.
Drosh upset sir, when pointed out that sir's lab place had been empty all time while talking to Drosh. Sir strike Drosh, and rush back to little hiding-hole of a lab. Drosh yell to taunt sir while sir was running away.
Is not goodly.
Drosh visit mees Juniandi. Almost told about Drosh's shadow, but did not; mees has enough troubles. Need find way get those bits out of mees, without killing.
After, had talk with meester Frank about this Xellios. Sir was angry with Drosh, and stormed off.
Was horrible night. |
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[Jan. 16., 2008|09:49 am] |
C1. Ratchet to Winterspring. Thursday. 3 full carts, mixed sundries
C2. Ratchet to Sunrock R. Thursday. 1 cart (1/2) light goods, 1 cart empty,
C2. Sunrock to Shadowprey (R. Tidar). Friday. 2 empty, or light paid load
C1. Winterspring to Ratchet. Saturday. 1 full cart ore, 2 empty or light paid
C2. Shadowprey to Thunder B. Sunday 2 carts, load as R. Tidar specifies
((above lightly crossed out))
This Not Ledger!
This Monday? Tuesday? Kodo last night, so is Wednesday or Friday. Will have ask Stanky, right before tear throat out.
Fucking Stanky gobbie. Not know what this tea had in, but can't be shadow anymore.
Shadow was most comfortable around big glowy, now not even have that. Shadow comfortable and safe, must get back againly. Try and try, and can't do it.
Try walking around without tea last night, and found at Kodo. Hired that mees Washue tauren that wrote Drosh a few times. Put mees Joi in charge of showing Washue the ropes, as it were. When off tea, not hurt much at all, but is feeling like underwater.
Sara want talk about something, some Tuwey lady that Sara hire. This lady selling that bloodthistle Drosh guess, and has pirate troubles. Drosh not see how this Drosh trouble. Drosh tell Sara to tell this Tuwey cannot sell here, then thought a bit.
Want find out what pirates these are, and what trouble this Tewey is in. Want send mees Caeryn after, but mees was busy all evening. Gave note for meester Wilburr to deliver to Caeryn. (Can read now has goggly things, yes? Drosh hope.)
And that Inourhe elfie still missing. Must talk Juniandi.
Mees Joi is kindly. Wanted tell folks about Drosh's shadow, but is less Drosh without it. Also, seems that there bigger feesh to fry. Like that Stanky gobbie. |
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[Des. 31., 2007|12:43 pm] |
DAMN GOBBIE is late. Need more goddamn tea, make head stop this.
Drosh go in with Zephyrs to R.A.S. and see about mees Juniandi. This Xellios owe Drosh big time now. Durg was licking lips and droolie, wanting to eat Xellios. Is goodly not, not want 'nother spot of trouble.
Pretty certain meester Xellios understand Drosh. Will have to set some on sir, to be certain. Possibly C, but is prolly busy. Drosh have to see about. Has been thinking of pulling in that favor from meester Wilburr.
Meester Kel complain about being knocked out. Will take up with the one doing so, if think necessary, but that mees was not in control of senses at time. Meesters Quel and Kel not see any of this Winterly Father near Sara's cabin so far, but is hard keep watch on with weather being what is. Taurens furry, but still get cold.
Got list from M. re: Glowies. Must see if anything there keep Glowies out of Drosh head and sto
Damn gobbie. Have more tea now, but has even more inflation in it. |
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[Des. 28., 2007|11:49 am] |
Got call from mees Caeryn on shell, wanted meet in Netherstormy. Got there and she wish talk of mees Juniandi. Tell Drosh is not well, and needs watching.
Say a deader named Xe((crossed out heavily)) is controlling.
With Caeryn followed mees Juniandi, and is behaving most oddly. Somewhat stiff and unnaturally, and talking about Targets and things. Caeryn confirm is something do with - well, is bad.
Watch Juniandi fight some of the nethermen, and then lookie at boxes, and vanish.
Caeryn say that Drosh need look into boxes while Caeryn keep safe. Drosh nervous look through boxes of scrap and junk. Not certain what mees would ever need from such a place.
Mees Juni attack Drosh and Caeryn, Caeryn knock down, and Drosh and Caeryn tie up, and get back to Gadgetplace. Taking turns watching and sleeping.
This is bad trouble.
((line drawn across page))
Try take mind off. Wish had puppets with.
Got more tea from the gobbie few days ago. Was more expensive because now has something called 'inflation' in it. Not seeming working better, though. Not know how ask any to look in and see.
Also, not know what do about this Greatwinter Fatherguy. Two Drosh find in Orgrimarly over weekend were scared and weak, one was a trollie and smelled like drank entire Kodo stock and then some. Left passed out in dark corner, check later and not there. Other was orcsie who blubbered and said was just paid to entertain orphans. Sent on way. Still sound suspicious to Drosh.
Tried go see Sara few days ago, but was too much snow. Nothing on shell, so hope is safe.
Asked mees Caeryn before napped if this ever get easier. Drosh mean this friends hurt and in troubles. Is getting too much sometime. Not know which friends alive or dead, even.
Caeryn not answer. |
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[Des. 21., 2007|09:49 am] |
Not certain if this new flappy-flap working out. Nice lady said it was from same mama as Bu was. Kinda look like Bu, but less kindly.
Woke middle night. Seemed had passed out at Sara's little sugar-house. She told Drosh and Joi that was given to by Greatfather Winterly. Sneak out while Sara sleepy.
Drosh not sure
Sara generally very reliable
Fish cooked are nice with
When in Nether, Drosh see lots things cannot explain, and yet felt real with all Drosh heart and mind. Not think was result of whatever was in those eyes got in mail. Was thinking pretty clear by then.
So, either Sara really get house from Greatfather Winterly, or is some persons messing with Sara, in some way. After stabity stab at Everlook, Drosh not certain if safe for Sara out there, so close to.
Is third possibility: Sara lies. Is worst possible thing Drosh ever think of.
Is absurd. Drosh thinking follow Sara around, or hire one to do. Sara would recognize Caeryn or Drosh if saw following. Is not certain who else could trust with this.
Drosh think catch this so-called "Greatfatherly Winters" and find out what really up to.
(( as though written later: ))
Tea almost out. Must find that gobbie. |
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[Des. 12., 2007|09:50 am] |
Is so busy.
Met with elfie and nice deader lady, who were trying get information out of Au((rest of name scratched out heavily)) about where Drosh's nice elfie friend is. The deader, mees Rin, think name is, look into mind of bad elfie and get some information. Hoping that can go rescue nice nice Inourhe soonly, but that elfie say need more research.
That elfie lady wanted take the bad elf, and the broken elf on the floor, back to Silvermoonly.
Drosh not want agree with, but blurry in head, and elfie lady make good case. Hoping Silvermoonly peoples cut bad elfie alive while into slices with blue-hot knife from feet up, as Drosh suggest.
When far from A'Dal, head little better, but Wiley direct Drosh to friend. Had to meet this gobbie in Darkshore. Gave Drosh a tea. Forget what said is in. A bark and a bloodsomething and other pothy things. Sir had brewed some for Drosh. Was expensive, but took and got more to brew. Drank and head feel better than in ages.
Return to Kodo late. There singer trollie was singing already, and was so many peoples, was hard to talk. But saw nice tauren sir. Drosh most fond of.
Also Sara and Drosh hire nice orcie girl for serving. Seem nice enough, if little awkward at times. Maybe just worried about interview. Saw talking with a orc man later, so is social enough, Drosh guess.
Also think see a tauren lady working. Sara not seem concerned about, so must ask about. Drosh feel like gone just little while, and feel like gone for years. Not even know who working for Drosh anymore.
Got meester Kel back on schedule. Left foods rotting on dock, going cost Drosh much gold. Had to dock pay a bit. Sir said no schedule while Drosh way in Nether. Not know what got into sir. Meester Thurston said sat around stables for days, drinking, and not see meester Quel. Dammit. Cargo sit on dock. Have pay storage on dock, and now have reimburse gobbies for portion that rot. Gobbies prolly just sell rotten to ogres or dorfs or eat themselves.
But Kel back on schedule. Should put meester Gaurth in charge of, would keep in line.
Must see someone about head before run out of this tea. Thinking maybe nice lady Inourhe, if get back, or that nice deader Rin.
Not see many Zephyrs in ages. Hope is none lost in the Nether. |
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[Des. 11., 2007|10:31 am] |
Is some poster up about someone singing at Kodo tonight. Must go see!
Drosh used sing in public. Mama tell Drosh sing, when in Nether. Drosh sing, and work, somehow. Sara and Caeryn find.
At some point in singing, while alone in Nether, songs stopped having form. Sang new songs, that just come out of Drosh.
On more concerning note, head is worse. See Sara and mees Joi last night, and talked about pain in head. Shadow make feel better, somewhat. Joi suggest talking with someone who know about Light, Shadow, or both. Need think about trusteds who can do this, but right now, need more sleepy. |
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[Des. 10., 2007|01:32 pm] |
Has been looking over what Drosh write over while out in Twisting Nether.
Sara and Caeryn searching in Twisting Nether for ... not know how long. Not understand how know where was, but then again, there are magics Drosh not understand. Not care! Is glad be back!
((stick figure drawing of Sara and Rags on her windrider, and Drosh and Cae in the copter))
When came down and landed in front of Drosh, was certain that they dead, too. Goodly friends rescue Drosh! Was so happy see, and got to ride in mees Caeryn's flying machine back to Shattrath, that forget big questions.
The unmarked package of eyes. Clearly now Drosh know that should not have eaten, but get so many random gifts in mail, and smelled so goodly. Afraid everything after that. Fraid of Zephyrs, even Sara.
Not make any sense. What Drosh do badly to anyone to make hate? Wish knew.
Back at Kodo feels like dream. Back with people Drosh love. Barely feel real. If Drosh woke up on rock in Nether, Drosh not be surprised at all. But has not. Mees Juniandi pinch Drosh to prove is real. But Grey Man pulled Drosh up and save Drosh life. So, if can do that, a pinch is easy. Yes?
But nothing odd happen since got back, so, was real, right? All of it?
One odd thing happen. Was sitting talking with meester Grub and mees Juniandi, and mees say that something to Drosh head. At time, Drosh trying to get splinter from table out of head. Said was something in Drosh head, and Drosh assume something besides brain. Said something about magic, but mees not certain what was.
Grey Man tell Drosh something like that, too. Must talkie with someone healer-ish about.
Somehow, is feeling less afraid. Grey Man almost kindly. Why fear so long?
Also, Drosh hug mees Caeryn. Is becoming as trusted as Sara. Must keep them both close.
Need get a flying thing. Is sorry Bu! Wish big dragony thing didn't eat or whatever! |
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[Des. 7., 2007|09:27 am] |
Ate white shirt. Too chewy.
Drosh good counter. There are 3726 stars on this side of rock. If same number on other side, there are 7452. Outland must be that big dark spot, and at least as big, making ((figuring, scratched out)) 11178 stars or lighties. Round up for other rocks in way, guess there might even be twelve thousand stars.
Is tired of afterlife. Wonder what made Drosh run away in first place. Who Drosh not trusting, and why? That bad bad bad. Was investigating who hurt Sara, and then knew had to get away.
Oh, shit. |
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[Des. 6., 2007|07:37 am] |
((Diagram fills upper half of page. Shows a line on one side labeled Outland, then the first rock Drosh was camped on with "Stuff here" written next to it.
Close beneath it, another rock with "Fight. Lose Bu." next to it.
Beneath that, with a question mark in between it and the previous rock, is another, small rock with "Drosh" written on it, next to a tiny stick figure.
On the other side of the rocks from the Outland side, the words "Great Dark" are written.))
Tweck, where is? Sara, Caeryn, Rags, any thinking where Drosh is? Bloodaxe, Grub, Sihu, Gaurth, Joi, Yig? Papa, not even know where you are, been so long since seen. Rah Seh, why so mean now? Unity, Juniandi, Steiner, Luci, Bodh with flappy bat, shy trollie who hide, Wilburr, TikTok, all Drosh animals, Wiley, whiskey-farmer-orc, nice orc who sell candles and smile at Drosh, Lucency, crazy Tay, Kodo drinking peepls, scary tauren and the elf, yelling pirates, snooty elves, nicely elves, nice ones who drive caravan and all Drosh friends seen recently or been forever since seen and peepls Drosh just know face of or ever met Drosh, is missing Drosh at all? Is anyone hear Drosh screams?
Maybe one day someone find this. Maybe this is only goodbye Drosh have. Not afraid of it now. Know that, that Drosh go with love for all.
Is close to Dark. So many stars.
What was
((Next page, apparently some time later: ))
Is very calm now. Has been hours, and Drosh head not hurting. Drosh voice not hurting. Know fate, now. Not understand how this afterlife. Maybe deaders go to this cold nothingness. Drosh just find it more directly.
Maybe afterlife is just pictures in head tricking Drosh, or maybe odd magicness of the Nether and Dark.
Saw white rat. Is Mr. Slappy, is certain. Look at Drosh, then run to edge of rock, and was looking down. Turn back to Drosh, issa little orc. A boy.
Say to Drosh, "Help is coming, but there's one last person who wants to see you." Did not fade, like others; just gone. Drosh certain is dreaming stuff happen when dead.
Then there smell, in the dark. Was warm, smell like linen and clean wool, smell like spring. Smell like childhoodly.
Heard one thing. Sound as gentle as petals falling on skin, or warm bath on cold autumn day.
"Don't give up, Drosh. Sing."
Sound like Mama. Yes, Mama.
Is singing. All the songs. Hurt less than yelling. |
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[Des. 5., 2007|06:49 am] |
((I'm afraid that I had to bend some rules to make this entry work, and still keep it from Drosh's voice. At the same time, I'm not sorry, because this had to happen.))
((shaky handwriting))
Fell.
((rest of page full of a picture of rocks and stars, a tiny stick figure in the center of it all.
On the next page: ))
Wish could draw better. Is calm now. So much to write. Will try. Need start beginning.
Stepped off rock, and fell. Panicked, and used too many feathers to slow self. Did not think fell far, can still see last rock place above, or think is. But felt like fell forever. Hit side of rock, clung to. Had dagger, used to help climb up, slipped and dagger fall into Nether. Maybe dagger keep hearthstone company.
Not certain how long there clinging to rock and yelling, but there in dark, hand reach down to Drosh. Grab hold of, and pull Drosh up onto top of rock. Is much smaller rock, like Kodo office small.
Sit, and get bearings. Hand belong to man. Human man. Is probably pally, by looks of. Head hurt. Want bark at, but don't. Get flashes in head of something else.
Try write down all remember. Is hard write some words. Think remember all.
((writing gets shakier, at this point)
"Droshella Derling. You were the last one in my book," man say to Drosh.
Drosh ask about what book.
"Hush, let me see you" man say. Man step toward and touch Drosh's head, and hurt more. Drosh scream.
Man say, tapping spot on head, "You really need to get that taken out."
Drosh ask man about what taken out, and who is and why hurt Drosh more than glowy A'Dal.
Man say, "You remember me more than anyone else. You're fixated on me, in fact. My name is Gregory Mathingson. I told you that when we met. I tried to give you the gift of final death, a mercy on your kind."
Greyman. Greyman greyman greyman greyman greyman greyman. ((dissolves into scribbles)) drosh drosh drosh drosh. ((writing after this point is very very shaky; every first-person pronoun looks as though it had taken great effort for her to write it, and that she is struggling to maintain clarity.))
"I was killed by your rescuers. Something else you've blocked out, from what I can see. Your little mask-maker friend and his lover saved you that day, and killed me. And you? You ate my eyes, out of my dead body, and those of my assistants."
drosh need drosh need write all out. greyman very calm about all this. not Threatening, but Drosh drosh drosh ((more scribbles, and then))
"seems I deserved my fate. learned in afterlife, wish was different" Greyman pat Drosh head.
"get looked at"
cry cry hours hours. when look up, Greyman not there. still hurt in head hurt head hurt.
the greyman is dead. has been dead.
grey man dead. |
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[Des. 4., 2007|12:10 pm] |
((A messy, yet calm writing, similar to the bulk of yesterday's entry.))
Maybe waking and dreaming same out here? Maybe is dreaming and then wakes and writes. Maybe mildew on this oldy cheese giving head-pictures. Is thinking of eating leather next.
Is getting used to hearing things.
Was digging around bag, seeing how many feathers has (is six), but not know how levitate up and out. Anywayly, Drosh look up and there is drood cat. Look like Jehotay cat. Jehotay dead, too? - is thinking.
Is certain saw cat before. Is certain is Jehotay cat. Cat form back to Tauren, but is lady, not meester Tay. Drosh think recognize from Crossroads, while ago was there lots.
Lady say Hello, and say name is Brehla. Drosh ask if know.
Brehla say that Drosh didn't, but Brehla know Drosh. Say was wandering around Barrens as cat one day when Drosh meet, and start talking at, calling meester Tay and that Drosh cry and talk at lots.
Is true. But Drosh thought was Tay. Brehla say that she could see that Drosh needed talk, and so let. Said heard of Drosh because of Kodo, so knew where to linger. Said came back lots, wanting to tell Drosh who really was, but couldn't, both for Drosh and Brehla. Said it was a "glimmer of hope."
Drosh ask why stop coming, then.
Brehla say was killed by a Frostymane, and was gone. Said couldn't tell Drosh until now. Said Drosh call here with all Drosh yelling. Lady was sorry for any hurt caused, then turn and go. Drosh call after, but just fade like meester Duriyan.
Is true. Drosh in land of dead. If true, then Drosh can travel in Nether, just fine, yes? If true, and Drosh dead, can step off this rock and be okay. Or maybe dead fall in Nether, too, and Drosh need learn fancy fading trick.
Putting together Drosh things. Going try. Is only thing can do. |
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[Des. 3., 2007|11:31 am] |
((Messier writing than usual))
Must rememberly. Must must must.
Was so tired of screaming into Twisting Nether last night, that lay down for sleep. Could still hear something out there. Sometimes sound like breathing, sometimes like heart beating. Occasionally hear screaming.
Sleep very broken. Not comfy, wake with start often thinking was going to tumble into nothing.
Woke and looked around. Was bit blurry, like drunk, but was not. There was a trollie standing at edge of rock. Drosh ask if was there to rescue Drosh. Trollie shook head, and stepped toward Drosh.
Is seeing face clearly, Drosh see that was meester Duriyan, who used help drive caravan for Drosh. Was killed in attack by alliance outriders, Drosh thought. Sir look surprised to see Drosh.
Greet sir, and sir tell Drosh things. Was elfies, as meester Kel tell Drosh, but not carry any banner or wear colors of Alliance or Silverwings. Yet that where Drosh find stolen shipment.
Then meester Duriyan will not look at Drosh. Sir's eyes full tears. Drosh see before sir turn away.
Drosh ask sir why not come see Drosh sooner, and sir say, "Nah able, 've been dead."
Sir fade away. Drosh pull book out and write this right away. If not dream, this be there later, yes yes?
((last line written largely, and nearly illegibly))
Right? RIGHT?? Is Drosh DEAD? |
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[Des. 1., 2007|08:41 pm] |
Fishing line not long enough to reach anything.
Found wood and flint in bottom of bag. Not have to be cold and hungry.
Can hear something out there.
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[Nóv. 30., 2007|12:05 pm] |
Was thinking if could be traced by hearthstone. Tossed into Nether. Drosh think it landed on another rock. When Bu wake up, maybe fly over to look for.
((Below, in a messy hand, some fluid dripped on the page.))
All is lost. Drosh wake Bu and fly down to other rocky thing floating, and look for hearthstone. Horrible thing chase. Was a nether-drake? Do drakes live out in Nether?
Was big fight. Drake chase Bu away, without Drosh. Seemed like was headed deeper into nether.
Is hurt, but heal muchly. Not find hearthstone on this rock. Some supplies still at other camp, but no way of getting to.
((calmer-looking writing, probably later))
What below nether? |
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[Nóv. 29., 2007|09:55 am] |
Nether is boring. List.
G.M.
R.S.
A.O.
A.T.
M.C.
G's
G.A.
Not like big secrets. Not like at all.
((seems to be written later, different angle to the hand))
Supplies low. Bu hungry. Must hunt for Bu food.
((Sorry, can't help but think about what she's up to.)) |
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[Nóv. 28., 2007|09:20 am] |
Is being followed. Not even to trust Zephyrs until know more.
Shell in lake. No tracking Drosh now.
((This will handle her while I deal with RL for a bit.)) |
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[Nóv. 14., 2007|11:15 am] |
Two new recruits. Drosh believe that having allies is betterly than enemies, and all recent recruits seem a quite goodly sort.
Drosh served at Kodo last night. Has not served in longly time. Made head spin a little.
Visited Sara. Blames self for so much. Went to the Light for trying to heal. Terrible pain, must talk to someone about this. Feeling more and more detached from the Living; Sara and few others keep Drosh here.
Sara talk about things made do in camps. Badly bad things. Mees Sara think that this wound is punishment for doing those things. Tried convince that was not Sara fault. Think believed, though not certain.
((written in a messier writing:))
If Drosh ever find person who stab mees Sara in Everlook, or badly person who did bad things to mees in the camps, Drosh will tear them apart, just like warm bread.
Is promise. |
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[Nóv. 12., 2007|11:55 am] |
Mees Sara still sickly in moonglade.
facts so as not forgetting-
a. was stabbed outside everlook, Sara say
b. was most likely fel weapon with poison say droods and persons
c. Rags save mees Sara.
d. 'might have been' deader, by what Sara say
Is not adding up. Could mees Sara have enemies? Apparently was asking about after that Kriky orc, offering gold for knowings. Could be a mugging, could be nothing, or could be something else. Enemy of Krik? Enemy of ((scratched out))
Meester Rags save, so must have seen. Wish sir lion could speak.
The big tauren and the elfie lady Pook were visiting when Drosh return last eve. Is that serious that brought in big scary tauren? Why none telling Drosh everything?
Mees Caeryn and mees Sihu going work on healing. Drosh not healer; holy teachings hurt now, too. Did what could help Sara, but-
Is better out here, asking after deaders hanging around about time mees was wounded. When there by Sara is so helpless. Meester Gaurth watching after, will call Drosh if needed. Is better out here, poking around.
Was talk of pulling soul out, and putting back in after healed or somesuch. Would rather give all Drosh icthor to save mees than see go through that. Is bestest friend.
If have to do with that Krik, Drosh have to kill.
Living not same as deaders, not same as Drosh. Even mees Caeryn or meester Wilbur seem more alive than Drosh. Is more like real peoples.
Drosh just not know if can stand the Living much longer. |
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[Okt. 17., 2007|02:38 pm] |
((previous 2 pages filled with numbers and dates.))
Drosh return to Kodo early this morning. See meester Grub there, in badly shape. Sir had lost hand, but seemed none concerned about, what with trollie things that grow back and all, and sir not want healing from Drosh.
Seem sir upset about something with some tauren lady. Not mees Sihu, sir said name, Drosh forget. Think met the lady some time ago, but so many faces at Kodo over past year and half, Drosh not know.
So meester Grub throw self at devilsaur and get all bitten up and lose a hand. Drosh point out to sir that this not really productive to any sort of healing or forgiveness from the lady, and sir get upset at Drosh and tell Drosh to piss off.
Drosh not know what else can do for sir. Seem so unreachable. Sir not realize how much peepls care for sir, is so blinded by pain.
((added on later, in a sloppier script:))
Is ready start regular Winterspring run again. Doubling guard on. Is still concerned how Ally know about last run. |
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